Preface: I wrote this post a few days ago while having a down moment and debated if I should post it. I'm not looking for sympathy or trying to bash anyone who loves living in Searcy. It is just like I said "from the heart".
If you know me well, you know I'm slow to warm..always have been. Well, I'm still on the cold side of warming to Searcy. I won't even get a new driver's license or car tags because then it really means I am here to stay. I am in a state of resistance.
I knew that moving away from Knoxville was going to be difficult. I knew that leaving deep solid loving friends was going to break my heart. I knew that I would miss seeing the mountains as I drove down Ebenezer Road on the way to our house. I knew that Target would not be a daily excursion anymore. I knew that Laura would miss her friends. I knew that looking for a new church would be overwhelming and that I'd tear up sometimes during church on Sunday missing our former church home. I knew that loneliness would be a part of my life for awhile.
So you can picture how I might be feeling lately or how lucky my sweet husband must feel to be living with me.
I have lost sight that God has a plan for my family....a plan much bigger than I can fathom or understand. So as I experience a vast array of emotions as one does when they experience a move, I am focusing on the following scripture:
"For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11
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I've been praying for you so much this past week and I'm going to continue with those conversations because I truly trust in God's plan for you. He also knows that you are slow to warm and He loves that about you.
I can understand each word you wrote, I have been there...and I am sure I will be there again. I really doesn't even have to do with Searcy, it's just that you aren't where you would like to be. I will pray for you...and Jim :).
I also wanted to comment on how lovely the new background/photos are. Very classy.
I totally understand! I put off getting my new license and tags as long as Greg would let me. In addition, I didn't even try to learn my new phone number for a few weeks. I guess it just takes time for a place to feel like home. I've still got a long way to go until Jacksonville feels like home, but at least I've learned my phone number now. Baby steps, right?
I ordered a book on Amazon.com called After the Boxes are Unpacked: Moving on After Moving In (I'm pretty sure that's the title). It talks about how moving is different for women than it is for men. Nothing profound, but it was encouraging so not feel like I'm crazy and the only person going through these emotions.
Prayers from Florida!
Shannon
I have always loved that verse, Sara. I have it in a frame in our bedroom. Our sermon this morning was on suffering. It is hard to see God's grand plan in the midst of pain, but it's okay, b/c He knows what He is doing even when we don't. What about your new teaching position? Maybe that will help? I will be praying for you.
I love you, Sara. Sigh. And I miss you. And Mackenzie misses Laura. That said. I, too, love that verse! God does have a plan for you. We are praying for all of us! :)
My prayers are with you too, Sara. If you need a road trip, El Dorado is only 3 hours away. :)
I think you expressed your thoughts and emotions beautifully, Sara. ;)
I've written posts before,too, where I really wasn't fishing for sympathy either, so I'll leave it at that. Just know that I'm thinking about you!
I'm thinking of you Sara. I knew this was going to be a hard adjustment for you, but I also know your faith always brings you through. Hang in there. Thank you for sharing from your heart. Sometimes that is hard to do.
Love you!
I will be praying for you as you cope with all your emotions. It probably makes it better and also worse to know how much your friends and church back in Knoxville miss you too. When you called April tonight and we were at H2H I said "put her on speaker and they can join our H2H"! I hope that Searcy starts to feel like home soon. It is hard when you don't "know" God's plan (I still don't know what His plan is for us, I am waiting on that neon sign :)
Hey girlie...First off, LOVE the new look of your blog! It is so sweet with the pics of the kids at the top. Second, if anyone has ever moved, we are all with you there! Adjusting is hard, where ever you go....I was just telling a wonderful friend here the other day, if Aaron's company moves us from here, I'm telling Aaron that he'll just have to quit because we are staying.
God has a plan and I remember how it was hard to see the big picture when we were basically "stuck" in a not so fun place and all I could see was the little picture. I'm with you, Sara and completely understand what you are writing about!! I'll be thinking and praying for you...Jim and the kids!! Is it selfish to be thankful that ya'll are there because we get to see you when we come and visit? :):)
Hang in there! I am only a phone call away or drive across town! Sorry we have been out of pocket lately - hoping for that to turn around soon. last week was a real downer here too.
Love love love the new look!
I will be praying for you guys as you go through with this transition. Moving is never fun.
By the way, Jen, if you are reading this you better not be talking about Graham in your comment! ha!
I have to be selfish, too, Sara, because I am glad that you guys are in Searcy. That means if we EVER get there one of these days then we can see you guys. I have so many fun memories of Searcy and Harding.
You are in my prayers!
Okay Shana...no, not Graham, AT ALL! We loved being there with all of ya'll...it was one of the other 8 moves much further down south!
Sorry, Sara...don't you love it when people talk though your comments!!
You are in my thoughts and prayers! I remember those days/weeks after moving of just feeling out of touch with those around me - its like an emotional roller coaster. Things will get better...just think about all that God has blessed you with. Good luck :)
I hope things get better soon. I remember last year when we moved 5 miles down the road and it was 6 months later that I felt like we were finally settled and home. Eventhough we wanted to move and basically down the street, there are things we still miss. I can't imagine moving like you have.
I hope that God's plan will become more clear for you. I understand how difficult it can be. I miss you and your family. You are in my prayers.
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